I don't even know where to begin or what to title this post.
Last appointment, we learned the AFP was high. After scans on Thursday, we now know why. Cancer is alive and well in James body. There are two new tumors (one in the abdomen, one above the bladder), new lymph node involvement, and a new place to monitor on the liver. The words that broke my heart the most "progression of disease". This disease is putting up on heck of a fight.
James is about to start his 5th cocktail of chemotherapy. There will be new side effects, new meds.
My sweet husband is handling this news just fine. He is laying in bed waiting to start chemo.
I wish I could be more like him...I am devastated, heartbroken. I need prayer for strength to carry on for my husband.
I am so heart broken and I don't know what to say except that we love y'all and are praying so very hard for something to work. Try to stay strong and know that you can call me whenever you need to for whatever. Any time day or night!
ReplyDeleteI Love You & continue to keep you both in my prayers!! momma kim
ReplyDeleteAmy, my heart is breaking for you. I cannot imagine the pain and disappointment you must feel. You have found strength this whole time to keep going and be there for your husband (and everyone else) and I have no doubt you will use your faith to pull through yet again. Just dig deep and you will find the strength you need. I know you must feel so defeated, but you are a strong woman of God and He is holding your hand. He will see you both through this. If there is ANYTHING at all my family or I can do, please please never hesitate to ask. Love to you.
ReplyDeleteAmy and James,
ReplyDeleteThere is no answer as to why this is happening.I do know that God is with us during trials and celebrations. I know you feel weak and rightfully so but God is strong.James is probably not as strong as he would like us to believe but what a brave front for the one he loves.
All that can be done is to pray and not give up. Amy. Bill and I would love to see you two AND WHEN YOU ARE UP TO IT WE WOULD LOVE TO COME AND PRAY WITH YOU.We love you and God truly loves you.The Bolts
Amy u have always been a careing person who takes care of people. Along the Caney creek football field lines to ur husband's bedside* U r truly an inspiration. Although this is very difficult to understand keep trusting in Gods love and mercy for u and hubby. Sometimes its hard to trust his WILL but remember God is always in control. Love u girl. Katie may
ReplyDeleteI wish I was there to give you a giant hug. I can't imagine the emotions you are feeling and trying to process. I do know that you are an AMAZING woman and have been doing amazing things for your whole family, especially James. I do not know how, but I do know that God will sustain you. We will continue to pray for you and James for healing, strength, and peace.
ReplyDeleteAmy and James, I wish with all my heart that there were words to tell you how much you are loved and thought of every day. All the prayers to help you sustain this obstacle. Just know that I do understand all of the frustration and helplessnss that you are going through and God is right next to you. He will see that you both are in His hands and He will see to it that you are the strong person you want to be right now, Amy, for James. You both are in our prayers. Love you both, Michelle
ReplyDeleteAmy, I do not know you and James but saw your site via a shared friend on facebook. I understand your plight as my husband was diagnosed 12 years ago with leukemia and underwent a bone marrow transplant. Each year we praise God that he is still doing well. I understand your sorrow and doubt and fatigue. Please remember to take time for yourself so you can keep your strength and peace of mind. I can't stress this enough. And of course you both are lifted up in our prayers daily.
ReplyDeleteSincerely,
Helene Ball, Lexington, South Carolina
I love you sweet sister. My heart is hurting for yall. If theres anything you need please let me know. -Jess
ReplyDeleteYou don't know me but I saw this blog on facebook. I cannot imagine what you are going through but I thought you might like to know that, half way across the world, a stranger is praying for you.
ReplyDeleteI just have to add to this... God bless the internet! Your struggles and need for prayer can reach people all over the world! Can you feel the love and power of prayer, cuz I sure can!! You both are loved by many! <3 Justin and Jo
ReplyDeletePrays and love are being sent to you and know you have the all the strength you will ever need! If you ever need anything please do not hesitate! Lisa Lavender
ReplyDeleteSo So sorry Amy we will keep praying! You try to keep strong but lean on God when you can't he will hold you up! Call me if you need me. Love You
ReplyDeleteChristine
Please know I'm praying for your family. Keep your faith!
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